Exam results day...

I get that this isn't a review but i really needed to vent and where better than my own blog?

So over the past week or so I've  been in this all consuming state of panic and worry fretting over tomorrow. And as im sure you gathered from the title tomorrow is my exam results day. The 20th of August, approximately 3 months after my last exam and depending on wether i go to sixthform or collage, the possible last time i will ever set foot in my senior school ( for those of you living outside the uk our school system is split like this; nursery and reception where age is from 2 to 4  ( i think the american equivalent is kindergarten?), then primary school- years 1 and 2 where age is from 4 to 6 , then junior school- years 3,4,5 and 6 where age is from 6 to 10, then senior school- years 7,8,9,10 and 11 where age is from 10 to 16, then from there you can either stay in school in sixthform- years 12 and 13 until your 18 or got to collage or some learning platform like apprenticeships until your 18 and then if you want after that go on to university ).

So anyway for the entire summer i have been able to put it at the back of my mind and almost forget about it reasoning that it was ages away and there was no need to be stressing over it but now that its actually here im having a complete crisis! Some people would say "its only you're GCSE'S its nothing compared to A levels or anything else after" and they're right GCSE'S are the least I've got to worry about in the upcoming years but what scares me so much about them is that they are the beginning of it because if i don't get the right GCSE grades i cant do the a levels i want, not go to the uni i want, not get the job i want and so not have the life i want. Sounds over dramatic i know but it really means alot to me and if i do badly tomorrow I'd be so disappointed in myself  because i'll know i could of done better.
Sorry rant over  If i do well i'll post what i got but if you dont see me than you know it's gone the other way. Wish me luck!. 

Love, M x